Choking

Choking

Sometimes I feel myself choking in indecisiveness

there are too many possibilities that I can think of

and none is convincing me truly, as my heart has grown mute and cold

at those times I desperately want to retrieve myself, to return to life

but my mind is shared in two or three pieces

and I’m lost, lost, and submerged by this maelstrom

And I wonder how to retrieve clarity

how to let the beautiful music of my soul reach my ears again

and when I quiet down, I understand that this is the path I have chosen

a path where my soul abandons me at times

until I am strong and conscious enough to know what is right and what is true

even when the night is pitch black